and still..

I have many lingering thoughts.

through Auckland and exchange, I realise there is one way to be popular.

Drinking and partying. people get very friendly when they party. They will get many friends and be the envy of many.

Sometimes I wonder why i have so little "ang moh" friends on exchange. is it because I didn't try hard enough? and that I should be sociable since the world is like that. because if i don't, i might lose out on many things.

then again a soft voice comes to me again and again. that I am loved for who I am. and He is proud of me. and that people may not understand, but its okay, He sees it.