haha hello all to counterpart and everyone,
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thank you for all your comforting comments but i have a good news to share!

My mum wrote a letter on my behalf to NUS, telling them that I am very sad (is true). and so they helped me send a second appeal and THANK GOD, i got back the money! this is really something to celebrate about! it is a miracle really!! YAYS

There are things that I learnt through this incident

1) We cannot take things for granted.
it is not about the money. but we cannot take things that God has bless us with for granted. We cannot take His grace for granted

2) There are many more things, like life and love and health and your love one, that money cannot buy. that's what my taiwan friend told us. that the real things in life that money can't buy, are the most precious things in life. and i want to thank God especially for my mummy who helped me so much!

and some other important key takeaways from this exchange

contentment is very important. I think i am often so uncontented with what I have, and always comparing the experiences of others to what I have. and often i can become so miserable, only seeing the things that I don't have.

But when I really look back at all the experiences that I have, I realised that there is actually NO ROOM for comparison. and taking it for granted yet again, i am actually so blessed and loved by God, family and friends.

and now i am going home soon. BOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.